Silsila....

Wo ek shanivar tu aaya tha…
Cinema ki do tickets ke saath
Rastein kuch alag se lag rahe the us din…
Raat ki hulchal bhi sunai nahin par rahi thi…
Bus tera chehra dikh raha tha aaene mein…
Aur teri khushboo mujhe tujhse mukhatib kiye jaati thi…
Bike ki peechli seat par baithe….
Main ek umra guzar rahi thi tere saath
Na jaane kitne roz tak chalta raha yeh silsila

Kitne hi din mile hum uske baad
Kitni hi baar tune kuch kehna chaha…
Kitni hi baar maine kuch sunna…
Kitni hi baar tere raaste se yunhi guzri
Kitni hi baar tune mujhe dekhna chaha
Na jaane kitne roz tak chalta raha hai yeh silsila…

Kuch din baad tu aksar shaam ko
Mere ghar ki ghanti bajaya karta tha…
Seedhiyan utarte kadmein haanfne lagti thi.n
Aur tu darwaze ki deewar se tika hua
Meri aahat sunne ki koshish karta rehta tha…
Darwaza khulte hi…
Saansein ruk jaaya karti thi humari kuch waqt
Na jaane kitne roz tak chalta raha yeh silsila…

Chatt ke andhere mein kabhi chaand...
To kabhi mera chehra dekhta tha tu…
Kabhi main tere kandhe par sir rakh deti
Aur kabhi muskura deta tha tu…
Ek raat to tez bearish bhi hui thi…
Itne khoye hue the ek dusre mein ke bheege hi nahin…
Khushk raatein…..gaarhi raatein….bheegi raatein…
Na jaane kitne roz tak chalta raha yeh silsila…..

Meri hasratein bhi kuch ajeeb hua karti thi…
Gamle lagane ki sujhi thi ek roz
hum kaise tere bike par hi….
Lekar aaye the wo gulab ke gamle
Aur balcony mein sajaye the pyaar se…
Har naya patta thora aur kareeb le aata tha humein
Har phool tere hone ka ehsaas dilata tha…
Na jaane kitne roz tak chalta raha yeh silsila…

Jaare ki dhoop kitni narm hua karti thi
Balcony mein hi chadar bhicha kar
hum din bhujhaya karte the….
Tu aksar yunhi ek pencil pakar kar
Meri hatheliyon ki lakerien naapa karta tha…
Kehta tha yeh bus teri taraf jaati hain
Na jaane kitne roz tak chalta raha yeh silsila….

Jab bhi main chai banaya karti thi
Tu wahin paas ki seedhiyon par baith jaata tha…
Ek dusre ki chaai phunkte rehte the…
Tujhe maloom hota tha main intezar mein hun…
Isliye nahin kehta tha ke acchi bani hai …
Jab tak main apni bari bari aankhon se ghurti na thi
Na jaane kitne roz tak chalta raha yeh silsila….

Darr jab lagta tha tujhse judaii ka…
Tera haath aur kas kar thaam liya karti thi…
Aankhein rone lagti thi us pal….
Aur ek nadaan se bacche ki tareh
main tumhre shirt par naak ragra karti thi..
na jaane kitne roz chalta raha yeh silsila…

na hi wo bachpana raha ab…na hi kisi baat ki zidd
na hi hasratein na hi khwaiish…
na hi wo thikana hi hai ab…
par in silsilon ke daur khatam hote hi nahin…
har pal jeeti hun inhein khayalon mein…
yeh yaad mein tapdeel hoti hi nahin…
na jaane kitne roz chalta rahega yeh silsila….

Zafa bhi karte hain to kuch is tareh se woh..
ke aansoon bhi chalak jaaye aur dard bhi na ho!
Koi to aesi raah hogi monabbat ki zaroor..
na aagaz ho jiska na hi anjaame-khabar ho!
Dekhkar chupte hain aur chup kar dekhte bhi..
na jaane kab unse ru-baru hona mukarar ho!
Ishq mein kaid hokar lagta hain aesa kyun..
ke us pal ke liye hazar zindagi bhi kam ho!
Mumkin kya nahin is hairate-duniya mein...
kya pata tera qatil tera hi sanam ho!
Kab tak main khuredti rahun haathon ki lakeerein..
taqdeer aur sachaai ka ab darmiyan khatam ho!
Khuda bhi tarasta hoga us ek din ke liye..
jab uske bandon ko usse na koi gila ho!

khaakh...

Ek khaakh ka purza hun...
ek khaakh se janma hun....
koi nuur nahin mujh mein
ek yakta numaaish hun...
theherta hi nahi dum bhar
ek khusk si khalvat hun
Qafas lagta hun barq ko aksar
ek la-iin paara hun....
nakhl bhi muh pher leti hai
ek nagavaar bashinda hun....
duud si rehti hai dahan mein
ek maahir majruuh hun...
meri raah mein qandil nahin
ek magmuum nazara hun
har pal raftar badalti hai meri
kabhi door jaata to kabhi raah mein thakta hun...

Ek khaakh ka purza hun...visale-khaakh ki hasrat hai....

*yakta-unique, numaaish-display, khusk-dry, khalvat-solitude,qafas-cage, barq-leaves, la-iin- cursed, paara-piece, nakhl-tree, nagavaar-not to one's liking, duud-smoke, dahan-mouth, maahir-expert, majruuh-wounded, qandil-lamp, magmuum-sad, visal-union.

Ek raat tune mehndi lagayi thi meri hatheliyon par..
kuch mitiya..kuch banya.....kuch banaya..kuch mitaya...
is silsile mein apni taqdeer ko hi kho diya humne!
Tu chahta tha ke tujhe awaz tak na dun main kabhi..
teri is khvaiish ko zinda rakhne ki khatir...
saari duniya se rishta zor liya humne!
Log puchte rehte the tera pata har waqt.....
teri ruswai manzoor na thi...
khud ko hi bewafa ka naam de diya humne!
Tune kaha tha tu laut ke na ayega ab kabhi
apne bharam ko rakhne ke liye...
wo ghar hi chor diya humne!
Jo chadar tujhe bahut narm laga karti thi..
chubhne lagi thi ab...
aesi hi tamaam bejaan cheezon se muh mor liya humne!
Tera khayal har nabz mein basa tha barabar..
kuch sujha nahin to...
aaj lahoo ka raaste hi rok diya humne!

Itni dafa mar chuke hain mohabbat mein teri

ke ab kisi par bhi marne ka dum nahin.....

Sach hai ke waqt dhundhli kar deta hai yaadein

par shayad ise bhi humare dard ka dard nahin...

Gum yeh nahin ke gum bahut hai..

gum hai ke ashk sukh gaye aur aankehin lagti khoobsurat nahin....

Tab tak to zindagi ghulam ban chuki thi teri...

der laga di tune jatane mein ke tu mera sanam nahin..

Kuch fizool lamhein to dafn kar diye hain ruhe-dariyan mein

lekin wo jo ek baat thi beech humare ab tak hui khatam nahin....

Logon ki dua paane ki justzoo thi humari bhi...

badkismati yeh ki ghazal likhne ka hum mein fann nahin...

ghazal...

us roz jab tu absaar khangal raha tha meri...

ek lafz dhundne ke liye...

mujhe laga ke tu jeena chahta hai inki panaahon mein

mera haath thaam kar jab baatein sunta tha der tak meri..

koi khubsurat khayal bunne ke liye...

mujhe laga ke tu kho raha hai mujh mein

jab tu chu raha tha apni ungliyon se chehra mera..

apni nazm ko shakl mein dhaalne ke liye..

mujhe laga ke husne-ada hai mujh mein

yak ba yak tu ajnabi ho chala..

apne shabdon mein dard laane ke liye

mujhe laga ke tu bhi to guzarega lamhein judai ke gum mein

meri khata meri masumiyat thi..tujhse gila bhi kya karun?

tu to bus ghazal likh raha tha apni........

* absaar-eyes, yak ba yak- suddenly.

Chaand....

Kabhi aadha kabhi pura..kabhi pura kabhi aadha..
kabhi amavas ke liye bujh jaata hai yeh chaand
Iske har aahat se nabz badhte jaati hai...
mere daag ki parchaii apne saath le jaata hai yeh chaand
Yunhi iski raunak berquarar nahin rehti...
meri har angraee se jalta rehta hai yeh chaand
Iski surat ki masoomiyat par na jaana yaaron....
ek dum mein jo aasiir bana le aesa jalwa hai yeh chaand
Na sun sakta hai na chu hi sakta hai mujhe...
door se hi der talak dekhta rehta hai yeh chaand
Is chaand ko ek martaba main todungi zarur...
apne sabr par bahut gurur karta hai yeh chaand

Aaoge na tum?

Mujhse bichad kar khushi se bezar rahe..

tum par beeti kya kya..yeh sunane..

aaoge na tum?

Zara si khawahish thi ke meri har khwahish tum hi puri karo

is tamanna ko anjaam tak pahunchane...

aaoge na tum?

Logon ko to mauka chahiye mujhe ruswa karne ka

unke har sawaal ka jawab dene...

aaoge na tum?

Jab tum ruthte the to ro rokar manaya hai tumko

is ek baar to mujhe manane..

aaoge na tum?

Kai raatein jag kar khwabon mein maine tumhein sulaya hai

un raaton ka karz chukane...

aaoge na tum?

Kafa the tum bus mujhe aazmaane ke liye

yeh samjahne...

aaoge na tum?

Tum jaante ho tanhaee mujhe baddua si lagti hai

main akeli nahin bhari duniya mein..yeh jatane..

aaoge na tum?

Zindagi meri nihayaat kamjor ho chali hai

ise iski maut se bachane...

aaoge na tum?

Waada kiya tha saath na chodoge tum mera

is waade ko nibhane....

aaoge na tum?

to behtar....

Apna banakar ajnabi kar dena to peshaah hai tera
par main ise teri bay khabri hi samjhun to behtar...
Teri berukhi par tajuub kam nahin hai mujhe
par main ise apni badnaseebi hi samjhun to behtar...
Teri wafa meri zeenate-ziist hua karti thi
par main baakii zindagi ko bhi haseen samjhun to behtar...
Meri rooh bhi tere nakshe-kadam par chalti hai
par main khud ko zinda hi samjhun to behtar...
Tujhe chaha jaise khuda ko bhi na chaha humne
par ise dil ki nadaani hi samjhun to behtar....
Main jaanti hun tu basta hai kisi aur ki haathon ki lakeeron mein
par main ab bhi tujhe apna hi samjhun to behtar.....
Waise to mili raahe-mohabbat mein befawai har baar
par main ise ittefaq hi samjhun to behtar....

*bay khabri-ignorance,zeenate-ziist-beauty of life.

lamhein

Raahe-ziist mein hain lamein tamaam aashana mere....

kayi bichde, kayi pighle to kuch lipte hue hain ab bhi

kayi majaaz the, kayi khamosh to kuch shor macha rahein hain ab bhi

kayee to raddee ho chale akhbaar ki tareh to kuch ka nairang barquarar hai ab bhi

kayee poshidaa the to kuch mehfilon ki surkhiyan bani hui hai ab bhi

kayee pakeezah to kuch pashemaani ke bojh tale dabe hue hain ab bhi

kayee kotaah to kuch daraaz

kayee paayab the to kuch ki gehrai naap rahi hun ab bhi

kayee khuu thi to kuch khata

kayee beraham the to kuch chaashni ki ghol si mehsus hoti hai ab bhi

kayee laa_iin to kuch makhsuus

aaj phir in tamaam bilakhte hue lamhon ko

ok mein uthakar apne

aasuon ka ilaaj diya maine!

*raahe-ziist-zindagi ki raah,aashna-friend,majaaz-illusion,nairang-magic,poshidaa-hidden,pakeezah-pure,pashemaan-ashamed,kotaah-short,daraaz-long,ok-folded palms.

aaj kisine...

Na abr, na sitare na chaand

aasmaan ko loot liya hai aaj kisine....

meri parchaii ka kho gaya aakhiri purzaa bhi

shabe-dajjuur mein chura liya aaj kisine...

meri aankhein ab band hoti hi nahin....

inhein kuch paarasaa-ii khawabon se milwa diya aaj kisine

pehli baar khuda se dua mein maangi umr thori aur....

ke ghazal likhne ka hunar sikhla diya aaj kisine.

*abr-baadal, purzaa-fragment, shabe-dajjuur-pitch dark night,paarasaa-ii-pure

Meri qazaa

Roz apni gali ko dekhti hun main..

isko munnir rakhne ki zimmedari meri hai

Wo ghar jahan ki main quadiime-makiin hun...

khalvat mein tarap raha hai ek umr-daraaz se

Mere maka.N ke baam bhi ab ho chale hain bezaar

inko ab dikhte kah-kashann.N nahin

Badr kai dino se naseeb nahin hua hai khidkiyon ko

shabe-amawas ki khauf mein din guzara karti hain

Kori deewarein ghurti rehti hain mujhe

mere khoon ke cheeton se ho jaayein munaqqash shayad

Yeh darwaaze dua karte hain ke koi mukhaalif hi aa jaaye

par baarha khamoshi hi sunai diya karti hai

Meri qazaa hi muddavar hai ab shayad...

isi bahane ek majamaa to iqattha hoga!

*munnir-bright,qadiime-makiin-old dweller,khalvat-solitude,umr-daraaz-long time,baam-terrace,bezaar-angry,kah-kashann.N- galazy,badr-full moon,munaqqash-decorated,mukhaalif-enemy,qazaa-death,muddavar-cure,majamaa-crowd.

ek baarish...

ek baarish mujhe bhi udhar de do..

her boond jiski mujhe tumhare aur kareeb le aaye...

ek baarish mere saath bheengoge na tum?

koi aesi jisse sirf tumhari khushboo aaye..

tumhari bheegti hui hansi ko dekhti rahungi main

haathon mein tumhare apne haath dekar..

ek baarish..sirk ek..mujhe udhar de do..

shayad phir koi dhup mujhe jala na paaye..

yeh baarish simit jaaeyi mere ruhe jehan mein ek khushnuma yaad bankar....

Tere jalwon ka asar gehra para hai mujh par..
meri haqeekat bhi afsaana ban chuki hai ab..
tu ab laut bhi aaye to kuch na ho shayad...
ke mujhe is afsaane par aitbaar ho chala hai!

Zidd...

Tabiyat kuch aesi hui ke zidd kar baithe unse dil lagane ki..

dil ne roka bhi tha humein..

par humko ko to zidd thi unhein apne kareeb laane ki..

abse humara har ek kadam koshish mein tha..

apne is zidd ko anjaam tak pahunchane ki...

aakhir humne unhein dil mein mukamal bhi kar liya...

wo humare ho na sake wo baat aur hai...

khud ki zidd mein itne mashruf the hum...

ke samajh na sake khuda ke saajish ko

uski neeyat thi shayad..meri zindagi mein tabaahi laane ki!!

mere labon ki hansi par mat jaana..

kuch cheezein yunhi bewajah si hoti hain..

ek saans lene mein dum ghut ta hai mera

yeh zindagi bhi kitni bewajah si hoti hai...

mere dil ki zubaan mere labon tak pahunch nahin paati

bus kabhi kabhi aankhon se chalak jaati hai

kasoor unka nahin jo samajh nahin paate..

aakhir aansuon ki keemat bhi zara si hoti hai!

humne apni hasti mitakar unhein wajood de daala to kya?

unki har khwaish ko apna bana daala to kya?

aaj na wo hain, na hum na zindagi hi kahin...

par kuch palon ki keemat ta-umra si hoti hai.......

tu....

teri nazar mein aesa kya tha

jo neend chura gaya meri...

tere naam mein bhi jaadoo sa tha

mere labon par ek muddat se khila sa hai

wo jo kashish thi khamoshi mein teri...

uska saroor zehn-o-dil se gaya hi nahin..

teri khushboo lipti hui hai badan se ab tak..

tu bichar kar bhi saans leta hai mujh mein har waqt.

aaj phir mazza aaya apni tabaahi ka matam manane mein...is uzr se tere vaabaasta har khayale-abtas ko samet liya humne....

zara...

Rakhkar dil par haath humse puchte the wo

"kya kuch mehsus bhi nahin hota?"

hum kabhi yeh na bata paaye ke humari dhadkane ruk gayi thi zara...

wo haath thaam ke humara shikayat karte the

"tum to meri taraf dekhti tak nahin"

hum kabhi yeh na samjha paaye ke taqdeerein mila rahe the zara....

ek roz jab kiya unhone izhaare mohabbat

wo aakhiri roz tha is afsaane ka

humne unhein yeh batana tak munasive nahi samjha...

ke hum apne manhus saaye se bacha rahe the unko zara!

Samandur...

maine apni ruh mein ek samandur chupa rakha hai..
na jaane kitne khawab doob jaate hain roz......

Aaeena

Bus guzar rahi thi wahan se..ke dekha patton ki bheer mein ek phool para tha..laal tha ekdum

kuch to baat thi usmein ke nazar meri tik gayi uspar

main muskurayi bhi par wo nahi..

uski yeh sanjidgi uski zidd thi,aadat ya majburi?

ya uske haalat ki yeh saajish thi?

kuch paane ki bequarari thi ya kuch khone ka darr? ya zindagi us mor par le aayi tho use jahan gham aur khushi ke beech ka faasila halka par jaata hai? kya jaane kya tha!!

haan...magar mujhe mera 'aaeena' sa laga wo....

aajkal jo bhi milta hai raah chalte mujhe..
mujhse meri udasi ka sabab puchta hai...
har cheez itni dushwaar kyun hoti hai bhala?
jab khush thi to inki hi nazar lag gayi
ab udas rehna bhi gunaah ho gaya!